More Time for Me

I'm up this morning at a hideously early hour. For me at least.

5 am.

Probably a little earlier too. It was around 5 am when I realized I was not going to be falling back asleep and might as well get up and do something other than lay in bed.

Mostly due to that deadly combination of worrying and a crappy diet too late at night.

So I've been going through a mountain of emails, organizing everything into folders as not being able to find things adds to my stress levels. I've had two cups of caffeine and am resigned to having a day where my mind and body are not in sync.

I suppose if I try to look at this positively, I can at least be happy in the fact that I won't be rushing around this morning trying to get things done at the last minute and running late for work like I usually do. It's not intentional (at least not on a conscious level) but I am starting to realize that the lack of organization at home is staring to have repercussions at work, not to mention my emotional healthy.

And it's not like I have a lot to do to get organized in the mornings. Shower, eat breakfast and go.

This is more of an inability to get jump started in motivation because of messiness. Such as I can't find my keys because they're buried under the pile of mail I threw on the loveseat the night before. Or I can't find my CTA Card because I don't remember where I left it the night before. Or just waking up and going straight to my computer because I need to have my internet fix and then realizing I have 20 minutes left in which to get showered, dressed and slap on some makeup before running out the door.

No wonder I'm crabby when I get to work. I'm making me a low priority.

Personally, I am the kind of person who gets stressed about messes but the longer I put it off, the more insurmountable the obstacle becomes to the point where I just don't know where to start. So I simply don't. I pick up here and there, move papers around here and there, and eventually putter out completely. And if left untended too long I find that I start let it trickle over into other areas. I start getting disorganized at work. I start getting sloppy in other areas like eating and quality relaxation time (blogging good, bored internet surfing not so much).

So, I have to change my patterns here. Stop wasting time so there's less hurry up and panic moments. Which means cutting down on the internet time. Or at least setting limitations on how much time I spend.

Less quantity, more quality in other words.