So I woke up today and called in sick. Actually, I emailed it in and cc'd the other people in the office and went back to bed for all of half an hour before I realized it was pointless, got up to watch tv for awhile and then as the morning progressed play computer games. In other words, I think I could have successfully dragged myself into work had I been motivated. Problem is, I'm not right now. After the events of the past few months, I'm a lot more clear eyed than I have ever been before. I'm also a lot more cynical when it comes to believing much of what i'm told at work as it changes so quickly and what's said is usually not what ends up happening. It's not a bad place to work. And I'm grateful to have a job. It's just becoming more apparent that I need to balance work and home again in order to keep from wandering aimlessly through life. So the interest in cooking again is coming at a very opportune time. Plus, I have some food challenges that are coming up over the next month that are outside of my normal comfort zones or baking/cooking habits so this is a nice way to start shaking the rut.
Plus, I have some fun activities planned for this weekend with my meetup groups including making homemade pasta which I am looking forward to as one of my blogging groups I'm cooking with is working through Marcella Hazan's "Cooking Italian" book which based on the pictures I've seen and the recipes I've read sounds like it will be very yummy, very challenging and in my picky sweet based focus, some of them are way outside what I'd eat on my own unless presented with no other options. So, the pasta making class will help a lot with that.
Now, it's time to get focused on eating better. And exercising. The person I am is the person I have thought and eaten and acted myself into being. There's just more and more times I look at myself and think this is not where I'm supposed to be. And I'm realizing that if it's not working as I am now, what do I have to lose by changing?